bit of a backround story...
i was always a pretty good kid, when i was like 16 i decided to try weed and well dove right into the drug world real fast. started sellin b4 i knew wtf i was doin. became a bit of a clepto, ya know the works. over 2 years i stole quite a bit of money/pills from my stepdad, mom, grandma and was involved with other bs that got me into trouble. eventually i got caught taking my moms car out w/o a license one day and was sent to SC to live with my dad. so i cleaned up my act/morals/personality what have you, found myself again...came back to NY for vacation about a year n a half ago n decided to stay. now the only problem my stepdad has with me is he does not like me having weed in the house. which is understandable, he dont want my sister being influenced. tho now im finding weed is least the troubles in this household.
ive known about my mothers dependency problem with painkillers for quite a while but i did not know how deep it really was, since ive been back ive come to find it to be disgusting. she has her perscription which is i dont how much, but its the strongest vics. my stepfather keeps this shit on lockdown in a lock box to prevent her from misusage. for a while when i didnt realize how crazy the situation was, me n my friends were supplying her a bit on the side. after a while id see her all the time like so fucking wasted on them shits, like slurring her words, stumbling, passing out mid conversation, etc. so i eventually told my friends to just cut her off. she still constantly begging me to ask my bud sources if they can get any and i dont.
so last weekend i think it was like 50 pills went missing from the lockbox. my stepdad says he counted them leaving the pharmacy and whoever took them was in a hurry b/c they spilt some in the box. so obviously, its my mom... tho im a suspect b/c of my previous actions which is none other than my own fault. my friends are suspects as well, but im 99% sure it couldnt have been any of them. for one i dont have people over my house for very long, and they are never really out of sight aside from my room. apparantly the box was hidden in my downstairs bathroom(no one ever uses) and god knows where the key was. so how the fuck would any of us even know about that shit? but w/e.
basically my stepfather is in the position of not knowing who to believe, his wife who has a major pill problem, or his stepson who has stolen from and lied to him in the past. i guess until these pills show up, which if i dont do anything may be never, no more homies in mi casa. im looking to try and get the edge of trust over my mother now. my mother is in Penn for the weekend, im thinking maybe i should have a talk with my stepD tonight and let him know about all the pill my mom purchased from my friends. but im not sure if i should fire all cannons just yet. i mean she dont have too much on me except the fact that i supply a little bud to my peoples to support my habbit. big whoop.
now there is also a extremely slight possibility that it was my stepfather himself, or maybe even my 12yr old sister. he is into gambling and was actually raided and lost 200$ at his friends house that same night the pills went missing. tho he doesnt seem to have any money troubles so i highly doubt it. my sister is a demon, she is like prepqueenbitch of the century and if we were the same age as me i would have most likely murdered her or myself. she dont really give a fuck and will do what the fuck she wants. i really dont know or think she is messing with drugs just yet, but ya neva know. she has been caught smoking a ciggarett. still tho 50 pills, thatd be crazy and id be very shocked if it was her.
all i know is i wanna find those fucking pills and clear my god damn name, and maybe its time i go back to south carolina with my real family.