If no? What could be the reason for it.

If you can share I'd like to hear what all you hide from others. Post from your gimmick accounts. Take the level of abstraction to a higher level if you dont want to be specific. Give a vague answer if the need be.

Is it the skeletons in your closet that you fear to show to anyone?

Is it that you fear that nobody will understand you and you're waiting for the perfect person who'll unnderstand you? But it could be that you'll keep on portraying a persona others want to see rather than who you really are to keep that person loving you.

Do you fear being judged?

I am who I am and thats who I am.

I'm me!

if you wanted enlightened responses you should have posted this in the TS... otherwise you're just asking to get flamed.

if you wanted enlightened responses you should have posted this in the TS... otherwise you're just asking to get flamed.



I like the Av.repped

To ask a question like this and actually get responses you would need to start by answering it yourself.

To ask a question like this and actually get responses you would need to start by answering it yourself.

what up??? old school ninjabro

if you wanted enlightened responses you should have posted this in the TS... otherwise you're just asking to get flamed.
I posted here coz nobody goes to TS.

To ask a question like this and actually get responses you would need to start by answering it yourself.
I'm actually trying to find the answer. Responses by other people help.

very much, one of my all time fav songs is
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdCfcjmxouo

i think i am 75% of what i portray myself to be and 25% of me is just for me

i think i am 75% of what i portray myself to be and 25% of me is just for me
Could cam shed some light on the reason behind that

Cam thinks some portions of his personality are more private than others. Some intrests and ideas are kept to yourself and are not outwordly presented to the majority of people you run in to

example

i really enjoy some opera yet rarely share that with others because the majority of people i interact with do not share that like. Portions of myself that are more different than others are kept aside. I'm not ashamed of those diffrences i simply keep them seperate unless people who may be intrested as well are present.

But the energy spent in putting on a face which do not reflects personality just to save yourself from getting stares and hurt rather than actually working towards making the effect of other people's remarks minimal is not a very good idea IMO.

I do think that you cannot open up to everyone. But should you portray a persona that is diametrically different from what you are.

P.S. Is there any dark deeds that you commit and hide? No offence. Skip this part if the need be.

example

i really enjoy some opera yet rarely share that with others because the majority of people i interact with do not share that like. Portions of myself that are more different than others are kept aside. I'm not ashamed of those diffrences i simply keep them seperate unless people who may be intrested as well are present.
Ok I get the point. Well said. So its about not burdening others with your interests. Good point.

Ok I get the point. Well said. So its about not burdening others with your interests. Good point.

fuck that shit, I will burden people with my Interest and I could give a shit if they like it or not. just look at the rock and roll thread for the Axeman. I could care less if people like my music or not, if I am there I will play it no matter if the other people around me listen to it or not.

yes, i am... if i cant be honest to myself i wouldnt be able to extend that outwards... i dont share all that i am bc there isnt a need to reveal everything about myself to others... there are things that id like to keep private & feel that there doesnt have to be a reason why i choose to do so...

No, in real life am a 5'2 Sherpa name Nima Tenzin.

example

i really enjoy some opera yet rarely share that with others...

I've never been to an opera but i will admit that i sometimes like classical music. Pavarotti's "Nessan Dorma" at the World Cup in L.A. a few years ago gave me chills.

opera & classical music is the bomb...

I will give you a hell of an answer when I get home. is there a way to flag a thread to remind me? I think there is.

what up??? old school ninjabro

Im just Lurkin around.And to answer the question, There are many different sides of me. Some people see a few and some see all. I can be many things and probably fit into every category in some way. Both good and bad. As for specifically ''on the net here'' My attitude, personality and thoughts are pretty accurate to what i believe. I also tend to believe that each of us would stun the others with some of our thoughts or actions though. And nothing is ever as it seems.

No, I'm not really evil....

I'm not really talking in context of the internet here. And I know evil's not evil. :)

What I'm interested in is how and why is the difference between what you are and what you portray yourself to be.

Occasionally masturbate to tranny porn

Like movies that make me cry

Got kicked out of the Navy

Failed my driver's license test 5 times

Loser in high school

Student of A Course In Miracles (not ashamed of this, but generally misunderstood)

Married to a Mormon

...that's a good start.


You are all pussies.

Occasionally masturbate to tranny porn

Like movies that make me cry

Got kicked out of the Navy

Failed my driver's license test 5 times

Loser in high school

Student of A Course In Miracles (not ashamed of this, but generally misunderstood)

Married to a Mormon

...that's a good start.


You are all pussies.
I might be interested in knowing more about Miracles Course. Links? Info?

I dont really mind sentimental movies. I dont know how to drive a car yet.

And why are we all pussies.

I might be interested in knowing more about Miracles Course. Links? Info?

I dont really mind sentimental movies. I dont know how to drive a car yet.

And why are we all pussies.

Cause I'm the only one who revealed anything worth revealing.

As for the Miracles Course, I speak with the utmost sincerity when I say that a link/page-long summary would be woefully inadequate. It isn't a Course for geniuses, but at the same time it's so goddamn different I would have to say it's akin to learning a foreign language. Really. It takes time.

If you really want to know about it, read The Disappearance of the Universe by Gary Renard, then look at the actual Course if you care to. The other way around would be completely and utterly useless.

EDIT

So I reveal some stuff about me.

I want to write a book but I'm not considered smart enough by others which makes me doubt whether I can do it. Incidently I started this thread coz this is related to what I plan to write.

I might be interested to study divine magic coz I got interested by that stuff by reading paulo coelho books.

I suck at studies and hence people dont think I'm intelligent enough. I disagree but I cannot convince them otherwise.

I need a paper to think. Literally. coz I cannot seem to maintain focus or remember the stuff I was thinking about moments ago.

^^Might not do my e-rep a lot of good. But I think people who matter might understand.

^^^^
You got it. I'll rep to that.

Was looking for better ACIM info and found this, forget wiki, it's way way better:

http://www.facim.org/acim/description.htm

And good thread.

If no? What could be the reason for it.

If you can share I'd like to hear what all you hide from others. Post from your gimmick accounts. Take the level of abstraction to a higher level if you dont want to be specific. Give a vague answer if the need be.

Is it the skeletons in your closet that you fear to show to anyone?

Is it that you fear that nobody will understand you and you're waiting for the perfect person who'll unnderstand you? But it could be that you'll keep on portraying a persona others want to see rather than who you really are to keep that person loving you.

Do you fear being judged?

You can ask Fire, TBA, Jorge, 40, Blunt, Xhale and Narb if I am the same in person.

i dont go out of my way to portray myself as anything. i just do what i do. more interesting to me is that i very seldom feel like i am the person that people see me as.

What you see is what you get with me too. I had to dig hard to remember that i liked one classical tune.

You can ask Fire, TBA, Jorge, 40, Blunt, Xhale and Narb if I am the same in person.
I am more partial to the real life Rory ever since the poster Rory started working 13 hours a day 30+ days in a row.

Rory is gradually becoming one of my better friends in life.

But this place wouldn't be the same without the poster Rory. I know the World Record Thread has really suffered without him.

Wouldn't mind meeting 'Magus and The Gr3mlin (VMA). I expect to meet Dr. Bob, Jim Persons and a few others sometime.

i think i am 75% of what i portray myself to be and 25% of me is just for me

I like this answer.


I am what I portray, minus a few manic episodes and plus a few personal problems that I will not share.

I am more partial to the real life Rory ever since the poster Rory started working 13 hours a day 30+ days in a row.

Rory is gradually becoming one of my better friends in life.

But this place wouldn't be the same without the poster Rory. I know the World Record Thread has really suffered without him.

Wouldn't mind meeting 'Magus and The Gr3mlin (VMA). I expect to meet Dr. Bob, Jim Persons and a few others sometime.

LOL @ meeting Bob AND Jim.

I would hang with Tibby for sure. He seems to be exceptionally cool peeps.

LOL @ meeting Bob AND Jim.

I would hang with Tibby for sure. He seems to be exceptionally cool peeps.

you are all one!!!

you are all one!!!

I am also Genki Sudo.

I am also Genki Sudo.

honto?

whhat?

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honto?

Hai. Honto desu.

What you see is what you get with me too. I had to dig hard to remember that i liked one classical tune.

I knew that would come up at some point of time. But the question still remains. Do you TRY to give off an impression which you know deep inside that doesnt reflect yourself truly.

Hai. Honto desu.

sodesune

Do you TRY to give off an impression which you know deep inside that doesnt reflect yourself truly.
the type of behavioral characteristics youre describing are those who have the psychological or sociological underpinnings similar to that of serial killers, pedophiles, rapists, compulsive liars, etc., than that of social etiquette & common courtesy, imo...

Actually I've noticed this trait in everybody. From people wooing gals acting cool to wannabe populars in our society. Fuck all the celebs if they are left to themselves and there is a less intense gaze of media over them, Just think what they would do.

And even in person seeking validation when he's being chided for having a different set of beliefs and who's not strong enough to argue for his views... He does that. He pretends to be what people want to see. He sells what people want to buy. Its called marketing.

In an executive who hates golf and books and loves mma but cannot show it off in open to remain in the good eyes of his boss. The executive who can beat his boss in a tennis match but doesnt do it for the fear that it may hamper his prospects in the company.

Just keep this thread going. I need some stuff to think about. And remain on topic.

I'm even sexier in person.

Fire, che, don pokey, evols9, king and godzuki can tell you how I am. Just like I portray myself to be on here. But sexier.

Ok

magus..... why do you have this self doubt? you are who you are and ultimately what fucking difference does it make what people think about you? people that love you will still love you and people that change their opinion of you were never with you from the start.

....unless your gonna start killing people. if your gonna do that keep that shit buried deep.

oh yeah - write your book. the first one might be a pile of shit but at least you did it because you wanted to- and thats what counts

I knew that would come up at some point of time. But the question still remains. Do you TRY to give off an impression which you know deep inside that doesnt reflect yourself truly.

Not at all bro. This is actually the easiest place to be myself, that's probly why i like it here so much. I'll think about it though, if i come up with something i'll let you know.

magus..... why do you have this self doubt? you are who you are and ultimately what fucking difference does it make what people think about you? people that love you will still love you and people that change their opinion of you were never with you from the start.

....unless your gonna start killing people. if your gonna do that keep that shit buried deep.

oh yeah - write your book. the first one might be a pile of shit but at least you did it because you wanted to- and thats what counts



yes, yes, yes, I told Aman this many a month ago, if people don't like ya for who you are then I say fuck them cause they don't need to be your damn friend anyway. that is my Philosophy (spell check ??) from the git go. I am who I am and thats who I am and if you don't like it TOUGH FUCKING SHIT.

yes, yes, yes, I told Aman this many a month ago, if people don't like ya for who you are then I say fuck them cause they don't need to be your damn friend anyway. that is my Philosophy (spell check ??) from the git go. I am who I am and thats who I am and if you don't like it TOUGH FUCKING SHIT.

I know that axe is just the same in person... even though we haven't met yet.
:sifone:

Hey i pulled my plant last night so i'll be smoking fresh bud in a couple days. Come on down!

magus..... why do you have this self doubt? you are who you are and ultimately what fucking difference does it make what people think about you? people that love you will still love you and people that change their opinion of you were never with you from the start.

....unless your gonna start killing people. if your gonna do that keep that shit buried deep.

oh yeah - write your book. the first one might be a pile of shit but at least you did it because you wanted to- and thats what counts

yes, yes, yes, I told Aman this many a month ago, if people don't like ya for who you are then I say fuck them cause they don't need to be your damn friend anyway. that is my Philosophy (spell check ??) from the git go. I am who I am and thats who I am and if you don't like it TOUGH FUCKING SHIT.

Actually I dont really care what others think now. Its just that I see some faults which need to be rectified and I try to make amends.

Actually I dont really care what others think now. Its just that I see some faults which need to be rectified and I try to make amends.


there ya go bro. :drinks:

I know that axe is just the same in person... even though we haven't met yet.
:sifone:

Hey i pulled my plant last night so i'll be smoking fresh bud in a couple days. Come on down!



yes sir, would love to bro, but... I got my Daughter this weekend and the following got plans already. but you and I will party, mark my words.

I know that axe is just the same in person... even though we haven't met yet.
:sifone:

Hey i pulled my plant last night so i'll be smoking fresh bud in a couple days. Come on down!

A couple days? Hell no. Hang that shit upside down in a dark room so the thc drains out of the stem and into the buds.

After a few days trim the leaves off of the buds and chop em off.

Put the buds in an airtight mason jar and put them in a cabinet somewhere. Open the jar for an hour a day, this is called burping.

The airtight jar will constantly pull the thc out of the stem and into the actual bud itself. Burping it ensures circulation, when you seal it off again it will pull more thc out.

Do this for a couple weeks at least, the longer you cure, the better weed you will have and it will get you higher. Do it for a month preferably.

And save all the excess trim, leaves, stem etc. You can make some mean hash with that shit, better than anything your buds will produce.

Yeah, basically. I ain't really scared to discuss too much with anyone. I spend too much time on here so some people will prob think I'm computer dork, which I kind of am, but I've played sports my whole life, love music, friends, bitches, parties. My dude friends know who I am.

The only things that might count as not portraying myself realistically is I'm not a loudmouth to hot bitches (like some of my boys are) until I get to know them a bit or unless we are flirting or something 'cause I think mystery is somewhat of an appeal.

Also, I got my "work" talk and then my "chill" talk. At school or work I'll be a nice kid, use solid vocab and shit, be motivated, but when I get home, I'm usually like "Fuck... getting ripped will be sweet". I present an image to my teachers n shit which is partially realistic, but I'd much prefer telling my buddies I'm going to beat their asses if they spill a drop of beer or if they don't grab blunt wraps. LOL

Wow, long answer.

sometime im me, most time im sarcastin.

Oh yeah and I'm not really very friendly, so unless I want to know to know you, you don't really know me.

I'm a fraud.

Im a gimmick...

i fucking hate people and im not as nice as i act

I've never been to an opera but i will admit that i sometimes like classical music. Pavarotti's "Nessan Dorma" at the World Cup in L.A. a few years ago gave me chills.

Pavarotti can give anyone chills, good example, he is missed

I'm the friendliest misanthrope you will ever meet.

a thought:

perhaps the degree to which you revel your true self to others is in direct correlation to your own self image

I'm the friendliest misanthrope you will ever meet.

God has steered Cam right on teh tunes more than once

thanks God

a thought:

perhaps the degree to which you revel your true self to others is in direct correlation to your own self image

complex yet quirky ol' world we humans live in isnt it?

a thought:

perhaps the degree to which you revel your true self to others is in direct correlation to your own self image
I agree. And there can be a better reply to this one. But as of now this is what I'm thinking. Not much. Fuck I;m not coherent enough. I need to REALLY think about thse things the feeling makes me feel so choked.


Are your beliefs right or wrong? Are they socially accepted? What repercussions could their revelation to the world have for you? Would you be belittled, embarrassed? Is it worth fighting for them and is it worth it? Are you capable of fighting? Is victory as in acceptance from others assured and is it really necessary for your survival.

I agree. And there can be a better reply to this one. But as of now this is what I'm thinking. Not much. Fuck I;m not coherent enough. I need to REALLY think about thse things the feeling makes me feel so choked.


Are your beliefs right or wrong? Are they socially accepted? What repercussions could their revelation to the world have for you? Would you be belittled, embarrassed? Is it worth fighting for them and is it worth it? Are you capable of fighting? Is victory as in acceptance from others assured and is it really necessary for your survival.

i think the appropriate question for it is "do YOU give a shit what they think?" cause if you dont care about what them bastards out there think, fuck em. personally, im comfortable enough with who i am that i dont feel the need to worry if the insignificant bastards i see out on the street every day even notice me, let alone stress over what they think about me. the best way to be accepted is to make people do it on your terms. if they dont, they really arent worth the effort. half the time when they do, they still arent worth it for that matter.